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When I was just a child
About twenty years back
I never would have thought
I would turn out like that
Or indeed like this
If I speak in the present tense
I guess I’m tense in the present
If that makes any sense

When I was at the mercy
Of the medical profession
They told me I was suffering
With clinical depression
And tapestries woven this tight
Into such an infant mind
Would be difficult to unspool
Unthread and leave behind

When I was just a boy
Around ten or so years back
I fell into a deep hole
But it felt more like a trap
I couldn’t get out of there
In fact I’m stuck here still
And all anyone can do
Is to prescribe another pill
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Mysticgirl-Rage Featured By Owner Mar 14, 2013  Student Digital Artist
Wow O.o what a talent
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Rifle1980 Featured By Owner Mar 15, 2013   General Artist
:) thank you so much. I appreciate you saying that.
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EnlightenedEnigma Featured By Owner Mar 5, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
It's as if you are the master puppet playing with words. Standing ovation :hug:
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Rifle1980 Featured By Owner Mar 5, 2013   General Artist
:D thank you for taking time to read my poems. It means alot to me.
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EnlightenedEnigma Featured By Owner Mar 5, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
It's nice to read artwork every now and then other than looking at it :)
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bunocerous Featured By Owner Feb 26, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Wow, the syllable flow and rhythm, and the rhyme of the whole thing, and the content, this is all really good.
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Rifle1980 Featured By Owner Feb 26, 2013   General Artist
thank you and thanks for the fave too :)
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nightlynxness Featured By Owner Feb 24, 2013
D: I truly sympathize. and empathize. But don't ever give up on happiness, or your dreams. Hang in there; even while stuck in that place, I believe you can still carve out a small haven. Still, there'll always be days that suck bad. But that's all the more reason to cherish the good times... You're not alone in this :hug:
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Rifle1980 Featured By Owner Feb 24, 2013   General Artist
aww thank you. Very kind and beautiful words.

I really do appreciate all the comments you give me :hug:
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JiaRoyale Featured By Owner Feb 23, 2013  Student General Artist
I know the frustrations: the doctor wasn't even interested in my complaints or changing the prescription: only upped the dosage, again and again and again. It cost me my job, my GPA, almost my marriage. Finding a support group who'd been through the same helped a great deal: they'll talk about their side effects more than the doctors acknowledged it, and helped me recognize what I could handle and what I couldn't. Even therapies vary greatly: talk therapy actually made me worse, but cognitive-behavioral therapy helped a lot, and now I can be part of that support group, saying, "this is how this one works, this is how this one works." And I dumped that doctor and found one who's willing to work with me.
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Rifle1980 Featured By Owner Feb 24, 2013   General Artist
Thank you for sharing your thoughts and experiences.

I think every individual is probably different and each will respond to therapy in different ways. Whichever is chosen i think it has to be better than pills.

thanks again for your comment :)
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ArtsyTiger Featured By Owner Feb 23, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
I completely get this, doctors don't understand that these stupid pointless pills don't do anything.
My dad's been suffering from depression for years now, and he's seen doctor after doctor. Taken pill after pill, yet he's still the same way. It annoys me so much because it really affects me and my family a lot to have to deal with it, and you'd think that he'd be better by now.
But no, as you said, they just prescribe another pill.
Lovely poem though :)
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Rifle1980 Featured By Owner Feb 24, 2013   General Artist
Thank you for the comment :)

I do hope your dad finds someone who can help him without pills. Some sort of therapy perhaps. Like you said it doesnt just affect the individual but the family also.
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RenosGirl77 Featured By Owner Feb 22, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
This was just...so touching, I can really relate to this. Doctors are crap at understanding what mental pain really is, they just throw a bunch of pills at you and say get on with it. The good thing is, fighting through all the sh*t on your own makes you that much stronger - and helps you help other people in the same situation. Great piece, thanks so much for sharing. :)
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Rifle1980 Featured By Owner Feb 22, 2013   General Artist
thank you too for sharing your thoughts and experiences.

It shows me and other people viewing this that they are not alone in how they feel :)
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RenosGirl77 Featured By Owner Feb 23, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
It's no problem at all, I'm really glad you found my witterings helpful. :) I know what it's like to suffer alone, and I hate the thought of anyone else having to do so.

"Everything gets better in the end. If it's not over, it's not the end." :)

"All the storms that I've seen are countless reasons not to believe. But I know that as long as there will be rain, there will be clear skies after." - From the song "There Will be Rain", by Young Guns.

"...Please don't give up. Because there might be someone out there only *you* can help, only *you* can save. I know you don't believe me now, but until you've been all over the world and talked to every single person in it, how do you know? How do you know that person doesn't exist? Don't take the chance of letting them down." - My dear friend, LG. :)
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Rifle1980 Featured By Owner Feb 23, 2013   General Artist
Some people quotes there. Very encouraging. Thanks again :hug:
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RenosGirl77 Featured By Owner Feb 24, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
It's no problem at all!! I'm really glad you found them helpful.:) *hugs back*
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caminante0 Featured By Owner Feb 22, 2013  Student Interface Designer
How sad and touching.
Strange thing for me, my doctors refuse to give me pills, they say I'm too young for such suffering. They told me to do excercise, swimming or get a hobby.
So art is my new hobby, and seems to help a little.

Again, very nice piece.
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Rifle1980 Featured By Owner Feb 22, 2013   General Artist
yeah, art can help :) Exercise too if you enjoy it because of the positive chemicals it releases in your mind. But its sometimes tough to be motivated to start in the first place :)

thanks for the comment :)
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ryolo132 Featured By Owner Feb 22, 2013
I choose not to take pills for depression.
I've been told over and over that I need them, but I swear I will prove them wrong.
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Rifle1980 Featured By Owner Feb 22, 2013   General Artist
that is a good attitude to have. You will prove them wrong.

Thanks for commenting :)
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RenosGirl77 Featured By Owner Feb 22, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Couldn't agree more!! :)
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ryolo132 Featured By Owner Feb 22, 2013
thanks for replying
*hugz*
stay awesome and I'm sure you'll hear from me again sometime ^^"
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RenosGirl77 Featured By Owner Feb 22, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
You *will* prove them wrong - keep fighting!! :)
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ryolo132 Featured By Owner Feb 22, 2013
*huggles*
thankyou :)
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RenosGirl77 Featured By Owner Feb 23, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
*hugs back* It's no problem at all - I know what it's like having people shove their stupid analyses on you, when you know yourself what will and won't help - all you need is someone who understands that and will listen, help you on *your* terms. Anyway, sorry for wittering on - you'll get there eventually, I know you will!! :)
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ryolo132 Featured By Owner Feb 23, 2013
*hugs tighter!*
Thankyou! It's nice to know there are people out there that understand :)
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RenosGirl77 Featured By Owner Feb 23, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
*hugs back even tighter!* It's no problem at all!! I'm so glad I was able to help you. :) No matter what happens, please remember that you are not alone and that there are people who care.:)
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Rifle1980 Featured By Owner Feb 22, 2013   General Artist
:hug: you too!
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MauraGreen Featured By Owner Feb 22, 2013  Hobbyist
I love the way all the helplessness seems to be summed up in the last two verses.
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Rifle1980 Featured By Owner Feb 22, 2013   General Artist
thank you, I am glad that feeling came across as the poem went on

I appreciate your comment :hug:
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ofelialoov Featured By Owner Feb 22, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Very touching... A very strong piece. :)
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Rifle1980 Featured By Owner Feb 22, 2013   General Artist
:) thank you for the comment
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SuperAlphaWolf Featured By Owner Feb 21, 2013  Student General Artist
touching, really.
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Rifle1980 Featured By Owner Feb 22, 2013   General Artist
:) I am glad it touched you, thanks.
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SuperAlphaWolf Featured By Owner Feb 22, 2013  Student General Artist
youre more than welcome. I love it
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DevonEaton Featured By Owner Feb 21, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Delightfully twisted wordplay in that first stanza. I approve :)
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:iconrifle1980:
Rifle1980 Featured By Owner Feb 22, 2013   General Artist
:) that's good to hear, thank you.
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ErraticDream Featured By Owner Feb 21, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Oh my gosh, this is such a strong poem
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Rifle1980 Featured By Owner Feb 22, 2013   General Artist
:) Glad you think so, thank you.
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L0kust Featured By Owner Feb 21, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Not to many people can translate that much emotion and meaning into just so few word.

Wall done and a good massage.
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Rifle1980 Featured By Owner Feb 21, 2013   General Artist
thanks, i appreciate your comment :)
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ZeFlyingMuppet Featured By Owner Feb 21, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Very powerful poetry. :D
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:iconrifle1980:
Rifle1980 Featured By Owner Feb 21, 2013   General Artist
thank you :D
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ZeFlyingMuppet Featured By Owner Feb 21, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
welcome ^^
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DeathsDoor4242564 Featured By Owner Feb 21, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Amazing piece, well-put!
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Rifle1980 Featured By Owner Feb 21, 2013   General Artist
thank you! :)
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DeathsDoor4242564 Featured By Owner Feb 21, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
You're welcome
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JunozPP Featured By Owner Feb 21, 2013
That rhythm is on the money and, my gosh, that last stanza brought the whole thing to its knees. I love it, well done!
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