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I know I am not the daughter you wanted
But at least you got it right the second time
My little sister found her place in your hearts
But I feel I have never really found mine

Why would you care to listen to your first born?
When you have a fresh blank canvas to create
All of those things that you wish I could have been
Had I not developed such negative traits

But those negative traits make me who I am
And shouldn't you love me without condition?
See my stubbornness as being strong minded
And when I talk, don’t interrupt just listen

I know I am not the daughter you wanted
I scowl but I still need your loving embrace
Though you barely acknowledge my existence
Apart from to tell me what I've done wrong today

But why would you ever want to talk to me
When an argument is never far away?
It’s the tone of your voice that hurts me the most
Rather than the words that you choose to say

To think I was once a baby in your arms
With such innocent eyes I could do no wrong
In many ways I am still that simple girl
But that simple life has now long since gone
realityisfarlessexciting
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Poetrist Featured By Owner May 17, 2015  Student Writer
I can totally relate to this, which is pretty sad. But it's incredibly well-written  
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Rifle1980 Featured By Owner May 18, 2015   General Artist
thank you very much for the comment :) i appreciate it
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Poetrist Featured By Owner May 19, 2015  Student Writer
No problem, you are totally worth the comment. Your poem's nice ^^
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CrazyMai Featured By Owner Jul 2, 2014  Student Writer
So heartbreaking and touching ♡
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Rifle1980 Featured By Owner Jul 5, 2014   General Artist
:) glad you enjoyed it. Thanks
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CrazyMai Featured By Owner Jul 5, 2014  Student Writer
You are welcome ^o^
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thatweirdchick213 Featured By Owner Jun 17, 2014  Student Writer
I feel like this speaks out to me! I can really relate to this. Good job!
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Rifle1980 Featured By Owner Jun 21, 2014   General Artist
thank you! :)
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Ava-AvaRose Featured By Owner May 12, 2014
My heart goes out to you; I know exactly what that's like, and how hard it is. You perfectly expressed what it is like and your words have a meaning that goes far beneath the surface. Keep writing and never give up.
Thanks for posting,
Ava
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Rifle1980 Featured By Owner May 13, 2014   General Artist
aww thanks. I will keep writing as long as i can hold a pen or type at a laptop lol  :)
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Ava-AvaRose Featured By Owner May 13, 2014
Hahaha... Same here; don't think I could live with out writing. Love your work and I really connect with your writing, Look forward to seeing what else you post. 
Ava
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adrianarosabell Featured By Owner May 3, 2014
sad
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Rifle1980 Featured By Owner May 4, 2014   General Artist
:) thankyou for reading, commenting and faving
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adrianarosabell Featured By Owner May 4, 2014
you're welcome, I really liked your poem, i am sorry was so short because i was a bit lazy, it was 11:40 pm and I was tired of reading  and commenting whole day and writing some stories too, I am not sure if I want to put them in deviatart because they're silly
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Rifle1980 Featured By Owner May 5, 2014   General Artist
:) you should put them up if you want to.
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adrianarosabell Featured By Owner May 5, 2014
i'll think abut it thanks :)
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LordofPhoenixDawn Featured By Owner Apr 29, 2014
The beauty and curse of being the oldest ......great job :tighthug:(the  beauty - perspective like no other, curse - suffering to get there :cry:)
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Rifle1980 Featured By Owner Apr 29, 2014   General Artist
thank you so much for the comment and the fave :hug:
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CyberYoshi Featured By Owner Apr 26, 2014
Ouch...
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:iconrifle1980:
Rifle1980 Featured By Owner Apr 27, 2014   General Artist
:)  thank you for reading my poem!
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Asterlia Featured By Owner Apr 26, 2014  Student General Artist
This is heartbreaking. I'm really sorry if you have parents like this. You're right though, parents should love their children unconditionally. :hug:
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Rifle1980 Featured By Owner Apr 27, 2014   General Artist
Fortunately I can say that I dont :)

thank you so  much for reading and commenting on this :)
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Asterlia Featured By Owner Apr 27, 2014  Student General Artist
Good! I'm glad! :)

You're welcome! :hug:
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CupcakeyKitten Featured By Owner Apr 19, 2014
It’s the tone of your voice that hurts me the most
Rather than the words that you choose to say

That part definitely hits home ): Great poem Happy cry (Tears of joy)
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Rifle1980 Featured By Owner Apr 20, 2014   General Artist
thank you! :)
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GoldenNocturna Featured By Owner Apr 19, 2014  Student Writer
I used to feel this way a lot when I was younger. It doesn't happen much now that I'm in college, but alas, it still does happen. Lovely poem; could definitely relate.
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Rifle1980 Featured By Owner Apr 20, 2014   General Artist
thank you, i appreciate your comment :)
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GoldenNocturna Featured By Owner Apr 20, 2014  Student Writer
You're welcome. Hug 
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Vegetabelle Featured By Owner Apr 19, 2014  Student General Artist
I should start bringing tissues. This is so easy to relate to.
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Rifle1980 Featured By Owner Apr 19, 2014   General Artist
I almost didn't submit it because I thought it was too simple lol but then thought maybe simple means easy to relate to. Thanks for the comment :)
 
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Vegetabelle Featured By Owner Apr 19, 2014  Student General Artist
My pleasure, Col! It's so good to see you posting more! I assume that means you're feeling better?
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Rifle1980 Featured By Owner Apr 20, 2014   General Artist
i think i am feeling more positive if not better :) In fact I feel better after uploading a poem just by seeing how nice people on this site are :)
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Vegetabelle Featured By Owner Apr 20, 2014  Student General Artist
AW! That's great! I do hope you get your health sorted out though.
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MySocksRock Featured By Owner Apr 18, 2014
Great work Col. :)
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Rifle1980 Featured By Owner Apr 19, 2014   General Artist
thank you! :hug:
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RowantheFierce Featured By Owner Apr 18, 2014  Student Writer
Wow. Exquisite, expressive, and emotional. Nice job with this poem, I think you really got the point across.
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Rifle1980 Featured By Owner Apr 19, 2014   General Artist
thank you! Really glad you enjoyed it :)
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shep4life Featured By Owner Apr 18, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
This is quite sad...I started writing poetry just so I could communicate in my family..our motto was "he who yells loudest wins" and I am not one to shout ( mostly lol ) so I feel the raw emotions in this very familiar
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Rifle1980 Featured By Owner Apr 19, 2014   General Artist
Yeah, sometimes it's not the persons nature to just scream until they are heard.

Thanks for the comment, I appreciate it :)
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shep4life Featured By Owner Apr 19, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
No problem!
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CathyMaokhamphiou Featured By Owner Apr 18, 2014  Professional Artist
Excellent job of expressing your self. Great piece.
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:iconrifle1980:
Rifle1980 Featured By Owner Apr 19, 2014   General Artist
thank you, I am glad you enjoyed it :)
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chaosheart13 Featured By Owner Apr 18, 2014
Ow right in the feels. And it's true, reality is far less exciting.

Also, in the third stanza and second line, shouldn't without be one word?
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Rifle1980 Featured By Owner Apr 18, 2014   General Artist
yes, it should :D i read these time and time again before submitting too but always miss at least one mistake lol

thank you for the comment and for pointing it out, i will change it now :)
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chaosheart13 Featured By Owner Apr 18, 2014
No prob, glad I could help ^^
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MadaraUchiha7 Featured By Owner Apr 18, 2014   Artist
This almost made me cry, I'm currently blinking and wiping away the tears because of everything I've experienced with my family, this really struck my heart! You really are amazing!

Keep up the good work!
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Rifle1980 Featured By Owner Apr 18, 2014   General Artist
aww thank you. That is really kind of you to say so. I am glad it touched you that way :)
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flamingodancer123 Featured By Owner Apr 18, 2014
OMG, The tears!!!!  Beautiful, painful, so very emotional!!!! You've outdid yourself!!!!
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Rifle1980 Featured By Owner Apr 18, 2014   General Artist
:) thank you!! and thanks for faving too!
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flamingodancer123 Featured By Owner Apr 18, 2014
Man, it is sooooo good, you are so very talented, I would love to hear it read!!!
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