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I am refusing to look back fondly
On the so-called best days and years of my life
So my memories will not deceive me
With rose tinted reminiscence and hindsight

School was nothing more than a breeding ground
For close minded and close hearted thinking
Education was drip fed like water
But was too contaminated for drinking

We were fenced in along side our ambition
And watched it fade as we were forced to learn
From teachers for whom our best interests
Did not seem to be any of their concern

Most days it felt more like a factory
Than a fertile field of free thought
Manufacturing these children’s futures
With the useless information that they taught

Truth is they were bound by bureaucracy
Their once nurturing hands tied up in red tape
And without any passion for teaching
They began to neglect and humiliate

So I’d go to the library, see spaces on shelves
This told me that there were others like me
Wanting to lose themselves between book covers
Before losing their true identity

So I kept my head down and carried on
With an intention to see it through and depart
And spend the rest of my life trying to shake off
Those silent school days from my silent heart
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Ava-AvaRose Featured By Owner May 12, 2014
I am currently in the prison called High School, and your words echo so many of the thoughts floating in my head. Literally, I connect with so much of what you are saying; just replace library shelves with a kindle :) The way you are able to express your ideas so clearly is a talent few have. Keep writing and never give up.
Thanks for posting,
Ava
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Rifle1980 Featured By Owner May 13, 2014   General Artist
hey :) thanks for your comment. I am glad you can connect with the poem. Makes it worthwhile writing and posting it when I know people have been through or are going through the same thing :)

thank you! :)
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Ava-AvaRose Featured By Owner May 13, 2014
Your welcome:) But honestly, your writing is amazing. Would you mind if I print this off to share with a couple of friends? 
Ava
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Rifle1980 Featured By Owner May 14, 2014   General Artist
:) that would be really nice. So cool to imagine people reading something i have wrote.

thanks for asking permission too! i appreciate that

have a great day :)
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Ava-AvaRose Featured By Owner May 14, 2014
Thanks, you too. :)
Ava
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flamingodancer123 Featured By Owner Apr 8, 2014
Oh my gosh, this is awesome. I took my son out of public school and am homeschooling him for these very reasons. I will refer to your words every time someone criticizes me for that choice!!!  Thank you!
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Rifle1980 Featured By Owner Apr 8, 2014   General Artist
:) i definitely think home schooling is the best way for some children. I know i would have definitely benefited from it.

thanks for the comment :)
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flamingodancer123 Featured By Owner Apr 8, 2014
You're welcome and me too!!  I hated school.........
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nightlynxness Featured By Owner Sep 20, 2013
Really accurate
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Rifle1980 Featured By Owner Sep 22, 2013   General Artist
:) thank you for comment and fave
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Ashbrie13 Featured By Owner Sep 19, 2013  Student General Artist
This is so true.
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Rifle1980 Featured By Owner Sep 20, 2013   General Artist
:) thanks for reading and commenting.
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Ashbrie13 Featured By Owner Sep 22, 2013  Student General Artist
np
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equinoxgray Featured By Owner Sep 16, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
"I am refusing to look back fondly
On the so-called best days and years of my life
So my memories will not deceive me
With rose tinted reminiscence and hindsight" 

I am utterly in love with the first stanza.. U did a great job on the whole poem too 
Love 
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Rifle1980 Featured By Owner Sep 17, 2013   General Artist
hey, thank you for the comment :)

glad you liked that stanza!
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MichelleMunoz Featured By Owner Sep 13, 2013
i strongly love this. every word.
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Rifle1980 Featured By Owner Sep 15, 2013   General Artist
thank you so much :)
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MadaraUchiha7 Featured By Owner Sep 4, 2013   Artist
You are just... amazing ... even better than amazing. All of your poems are so true to an extent that it touches my heart. I am at loss of words.
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Rifle1980 Featured By Owner Sep 4, 2013   General Artist
awww :hug:  that is really nice of you to say so.

It is really special to hear that my poems touch you

thank you :)
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MadaraUchiha7 Featured By Owner Sep 5, 2013   Artist
:P Your welcome
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EnlightenedEnigma Featured By Owner Sep 4, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
defrgth6j7h5wgf I fucking love your work. I featured you on my profile under "interests"
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Rifle1980 Featured By Owner Sep 4, 2013   General Artist
oh wow, i just looked. That is such a compliment to me. I dont think i have ever been in anyones interests before :)

you give me a lot of confidence with your comments and i appreciate each one of them a lot
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EnlightenedEnigma Featured By Owner Sep 5, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Ah yes you have been there for a long time I just forgot to tell you X)
I always look forward to your next writings :love:
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Rifle1980 Featured By Owner Sep 5, 2013   General Artist
aww you are so nice :glomp:
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DevonEaton Featured By Owner Sep 3, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
That red tape is on everything! Very frustrating.
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Rifle1980 Featured By Owner Sep 3, 2013   General Artist
Yeah red tape is frustrating, carry scissors wherever you go is my motto. Actually its not but it will be from now on lol
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DevonEaton Featured By Owner Sep 3, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Then everything in life will feel like a grand opening!
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Rifle1980 Featured By Owner Sep 4, 2013   General Artist
haha yeah and carry a portable Mayor with you to do the honours of cutting the tape lol
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Rigel4 Featured By Owner Sep 3, 2013
You definitely hit the nail on the head with this one! I am glad to know that I am not the only one who feels this way about the past and the school years. Great work!
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Rifle1980 Featured By Owner Sep 3, 2013   General Artist
thank you :)

that is what i love about this site. I get comfort also reading peoples comments. Knowing i wasnt the only one :)
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nightshade-keyblade Featured By Owner Sep 3, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
And that pretty much summed up high school for me, the last two years.
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Rifle1980 Featured By Owner Sep 3, 2013   General Artist
i hope you can put it all behind you now, or try to.

thanks for the comment :)
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nightshade-keyblade Featured By Owner Sep 4, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Thanks, I'm determined not to let the past be my present.

You're welcome :)
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SyGuy2013 Featured By Owner Sep 3, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
I have not yet read this, but I am faving it so that I can clean out my envelope as it is in the thousands. I will read this when I can. If I like it, I will keep it faved, and let you know.
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Rifle1980 Featured By Owner Sep 3, 2013   General Artist
ok :) thank you
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Aura-Dawn Featured By Owner Sep 3, 2013  Hobbyist Photographer
wow, that is tramatic.  I guess am lucky never had a day of formal education nor home schooling.  
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Rifle1980 Featured By Owner Sep 3, 2013   General Artist
hey, thank you for taking time to read this poem and comment :)

may i ask how you were educated? :)
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Aura-Dawn Featured By Owner Sep 3, 2013  Hobbyist Photographer
I know it's going to sound stupid, but where I was raised the education you received was on the job training for room and board.  I was age five when sent there.  So the education that I do have is self taught, but most is street smarts.  Found my way out of Malaysia at age 17  with martial art skills helping me become a model/actress.   Sorry if that sounds vague. 
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Rifle1980 Featured By Owner Sep 3, 2013   General Artist
that does sound vague but also amazing at the same time. A Malaysian Martials Arts Model :)

You havent done too badly with teaching yourself i can see from your grasp of the language.

thanks once again for the comment :)
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Aura-Dawn Featured By Owner Sep 3, 2013  Hobbyist Photographer
wasn't born in Malaysia,  that is where was raised.   No, haven't done to badly.  Got to love books.  But thanks for the vote of confidence.
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Rifle1980 Featured By Owner Sep 3, 2013   General Artist
you are very welcome :)
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timeywimeystuff13 Featured By Owner Sep 3, 2013  Student General Artist
Yeah, you probably are.
Though school does teach you some things... like how to deal with bullies and nasty people for example...
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Aura-Dawn Featured By Owner Sep 3, 2013  Hobbyist Photographer
So do street smarts.  I lived and worked with more then twenty sisters, not by blood,  As the youngest there were bullies, so I learn two things, how not to be a victim, and how not to pray on those weaker then me.     In a place where learning was forbidden other then what we needed to preform our task to earn our keep, one quickly learns how to kiss butt, and become a servant of a bully or lacky,  a victim, or one they stay away from.  In my world if you cried, you became a victim.  Didn't like following some flunky around, didn't like given extra chores, or being beat up, so chose option three.  

I agree, school does teach what is needed in today's world, whether one pays attention or not, they learn something.
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Tianithen Featured By Owner Sep 2, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
I can understand where you are coming from with this, school often does feel like a factory process and you do get taught stuff you'll never use (and also miss out on things you would like to learn). However, a lot of teacher do care about the people they teach, enough to dedicate the time and effort to provide you with an education (yes it's not perfect but it's better than nothing), my mum is a teacher and trust me there is a lot of work that goes into it besides the actual teaching part. There are teachers who try to make the lessons as interesting a possible not just get you through exams, but that latter of course is important, a person who has passed their exams has better/ more options for their future than one who has not, I would not be where I am now if I had not passed exams.
Yes the government makes teachers and schools jump through a lot of hoops, most I would think are unnecessary, but it doesn't necessarily work with schools governing themselves (my mum recently acquired a kid from a private school who read by memorising what words said, he didn't understand anything about phonics), so a balance needs to be found and this isn't easy.
Though it's a nice idea in reality creating an education that is ideal for a person is really impractical, everyone wants to learn different things, who will do the lesson plans? Who will teach it? There aren't enough teachers for this. Also what a child wants to learn/ do at that time might not be best for it's future. How would children who all had their own learning plans be assessed?
 What is useless information to you might be really relevant to another and vice versa.
Also if you do find something interesting there is no reason you can't learn about it yourself, there is a wealth of information about all sorts of topics out there.
Finally I'm curious, what do you plan to do with your life now your schooling is over and can you honestly say that without school you would still be able to do this? 
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Rifle1980 Featured By Owner Sep 3, 2013   General Artist
arghhhh i wrote a long reply to this out but my laptop lost it.

Anyway I wanted to thank you for reading and commenting.

I agree with a lot of what you say. I was just giving my own personal view from my own personal experience. It wasn't like school was hell for me, just I didnt take anything from it. That isnt necessarily the teachers fault. I didnt have a clue what i wanted to be back then.

I know its tough for teachers too. In fact it must be so frustrating because they got into the profession to educate and that is all they want to do. Then they are held back by rules and regulations. I also understand that it is unrealistic to cater to all students needs all of the time. There are so many and not all student want to learn. I really imagine it must be one of the toughest jobs and that is why i added a few verses highlighting their frustrations too. I wanted it to be more about the size of schools increasing and it feeling more like a business or factory and the individuals getting forgotten. The individuals being both the students and the teachers.

I actually finished my schooling over half a life time ago. Aside from learning to read and write i dont feel like i have taken much from my time. At that age i was a good kid but i had no idea what i wanted to be or do so i didnt learn anything that would help me now. I had no creativity at all back then so i wasnt into writing in anyway. I love learning about history now but didnt then and dont remember anything i was taught. I remember a gew French and German phrases lol As for developing me as a person well i dont think it helped. I went to an all boys school and just didnt fit it at all. Of course this is seperate to what i wrote about in the poem. It is just a personal experience i had. But maybe it gives an idea why i have a negative view on education.

anyway i hope this message send this time lol  have a great day and thanks for commenting :)
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Tianithen Featured By Owner Sep 3, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
I feel for you on loosing your first reply, I hate it when that happens! Thanks for taking the trouble to write it out again. 
I never knew what I wanted to be really, I still don't know now, but I'm following a path because I enjoy it, maybe it will lead me somewhere good, maybe not - it remains to be seen.
Yeah my mum has those frustrations as a teacher, things she wants to do but can't as there are so many hoops and red tape. 
I also think I have now forgotten most of what I learnt in school, and of course it seems once you get higher in education you need to unlearn the things you have learnt before and learn them again but this time they are different, because when you are younger you learn the simpler version and that version isn't exactly right. 
I went to an all girls school where they expected everyone to excel and to go to university, they would be angry/ worried if you weren't getting high grades all the time and were cross with me not applying to the unis they wanted me to apply to (they didn't do the course I wanted) and more so to my sister for applying to drama school and not uni. 
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Rifle1980 Featured By Owner Sep 3, 2013   General Artist
I wonder sometimes if it is about teaching the kids to have a thirst for knowledge at a younger age, or a thirst for wanting to be someone.

I know in some cases you have kids who know exactly what they want from their future when they are 15 say, but most of the time they havent got a clue. I didnt. I really didnt take it seriously. I went to college and took subjects that meant nothing to me really. By the time i had found what i wanted to do (something creative) school had finished. I only really started writing a few years ago. Maybe i should go back to school lol

Also peoples opinion differs on how important qualifications are. Some people prefer to get out their and live life. They have no interest in learning by the book. But will probably still learn in other ways.
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Tianithen Featured By Owner Sep 4, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
I suppose it does vary for different people, some seem to know exactly what they want and others are undecided.
As for qualifications I think they are important because in many ways they determine either what job you can apply for (most jobs will not take someone who has no qualifications) and also whether or not you get in to the next stage of education (if that is what you want). I've just started doing my masters, a qualification without which I cannot apply to the kind of jobs I would like to do (or go on to do further research which is also something that interests me). 
I think it's possible to get qualifications and also to live life, it's about finding a balance. So yes I have papers to read and analyse today but I also plan to invite my neighbour round for coffee, to go swimming, and to have a meet up with my friends tonight. :) 
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Rifle1980 Featured By Owner Sep 4, 2013   General Artist
yeah. I suppose it is about having the balance :) Which is sounds like you have got just right

I do think education and qualifications are a good thing. Having some direction is important. I know myself at times I could have done with it.
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Themoonofmyheart Featured By Owner Sep 2, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Oh colin this is such a brutal truth you have brought across through your poem. I totally agree with you when you mention schools getting commercialized into business. I was blessed enough to go to a high school that was very simple and smaller in size with honest teachers. It was surrounded by little fields around and the entire atmosphere was peaceful. We didn't have a huge library to sharpen our knowledge but the teachers built in a strong foundation on real values of life among students :) However, as I went to fancy colleges for completing my grad and masters I saw the same picture what you've written in the poem. It was too painful to see people getting their brains programmed so badly and the management coding every framework for the students for an end result that was like factory-made finished product. Not to forget how fees and marks are manipulated and insulted within the system. Your poem is very real and a thought most of deans should ponder upon :)
Qita
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