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Her Daily Masquerade

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Today her parents ask how her day has been
By now the answer has been well rehearsed
She insists to them that everything is fine
But the reality is the reverse

In fact she’s the antonym of the word ‘fine’
Inadequate, unsatisfactory
This is due to her creatively cursed mind
Steeped in a world of such simplicity

Yesterday friends asked how she has been coping
Waiting for their turn to talk, do they care?
They just see a happy, contented princess
Not a pensive, vacant, glazed over stare

In fact she’s the opposite of contented
Restless and at war with reality
Battling feelings of alienation
From unsupportive friends and family

Tomorrow strangers will ask her what is wrong
But in white lies she has become well versed
Knowing that the tar black pit of torrid truth
Will not dilute and only make things worse

She’s living the antonym of the word ‘truth’
But her lies are not designed to betray
Just to cover the cracks and to smother those
Who aren’t part of her daily masquerade
Thank you to my good friend Lena :iconmexicanpedo: for inspiring me to write this with her wonderful gif [link]

Both her and Dzeni (who share the account together) are extremely talented, two of my favourite deviants and should definitely be checked out.

thank you :)
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I don't read poetry often... because in all honesty most of it doesn't connect with me at all. (either because it's too simplified or the message too abstract) But I will say this, your poetry is absolutely amazing. I've only just started reading through your gallery and have found several that I really felt a strong connection too.

This one in particular calls to me, as though it is a mirror of myself. Not once when I have turned to other people and received true understanding or aid, and yet everyone turns to me. After a point, as other deviants bellow have said, you simply stop trying to explain and internalize everything. You adopt a mask for everyone to see and try your hardest to keep the veneer from cracking. It becomes second nature, to the point where as an individual you fail to recognize your own feelings and needs. Everything is suppressed for years, for decades; until your mind and soul and personality snap, it feels as though you've been torn in two. Then even as this transpires your tendencies are hard to break. While you may feel like you are dead or dying, subjected to some cruel fate, your second nature is there... picking up the pieces and gluing them back onto the that mask.

In some ways it makes you strong: dependable for others, rational of mind, able to move on from difficult situations with no obvious effect. But many end up breaking completely and seeking death. So in all truth, while others claim to envy me, this is a fate I wish for no one; because one day it will consume everything.

On a slightly lighter note, when it comes to telling people that your fine, eventually your mind finds ways of telling people how you truly feel without uttering the actual words. For instance (using Aerosmith's definition) the word "fine" means "Fucked Up, Insecure, Neurotic, and Emotional." But the person you are talking too will never know what you truly meant.