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Collin Hammond
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Sirens

Sirens

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They converge towards her tumultuous tide
At a pathetic peasant like pace
Foolishly lured by this oceanic muse
As the sea and their vessel embrace

Enchanted melodies from the undertow
Ameliorate the stagnant sea
As resistance sinks to a watery grave
Temptation shows signs of buoyancy

It is only a whisper in the wild wind
Though such a sweet and innocent call
From beyond the slate grey clouded horizon
Comes the wretched waves of the white squall

Watching on in wonder from the widow’s walk
As the weak willed cast their final shadow
Entranced and entrapped by her prurient gaze
And swallowed in her seagirt meadow

Diabolical desire filled the boatman’s minds
Now as they sink down to the seabed
Copious levels of brine shall fill the lungs
Of their doomed, hopeless corpses instead

Dead water ripples gently under moonshine
Equilibrium is now restored
No sign of the siren’s most recent conquest
Nor of those souls that have gone before
Sirens April 5 32 comments 66 favourites

Newest Deviations

Homosexuality BitesThey found me slumped over in the school showers
With a towel loosely wrapped around my waist
Scalding hot water was blistering my skin
As I bled from an unspeakable place

A hard-handed teacher dragged me to my feet
With little or no sign of sympathy
For the bruising to my feeble framed ribcage
And the fractures to my identity

I think they all thought that I had it coming
As no one was willing to testify
That the sodomy inflicted upon me
Was something to which I hadn’t complied

Boisterous boys laughing in the corridors
As I shamefully limped throughout the day
Not a thought for the pain that was inflicted
Just worried for what my paHomosexuality Bites by *Rifle1980
410 Comments
Suicide Is Not An OptionI find myself weaving the final stitches
Of a noose I have been working on for a while
I swore I’d use it by the time it was complete
If me and my sanity hadn’t reconciled

Each thread representing a flawed emotion
Which tightly woven together makes up my life
If you’re the one to cut me down from the rafters
Love, patience and understanding must be your knife

I find myself with a gun in my right hand
With only one bullet left in the cold chamber
I hand the loaded pistol with safety off
Blindly in to the hands of a complete stranger

Does this represent me opening my heart
And risking a life of abject, dismal sorrow
This GoSuicide Is Not An Option by *Rifle1980
54 Comments
UxoricideI find myself stood above my sleeping beauty
Her perfume fragranced pillow clenched in my hand
I’m counting each of her breaths down from ten to one
Then I’ll smother my silked skinned lover as planned
It’s for the best this way as no blood shall be shed
Just that of my erratically beating heart
My feelings I dismiss, I plant a farewell kiss
Upon her furrowed forehead as she departs

Oh my darling, why did you weave this web of lies
And why did you bring in to question my trust
Catapulting us from the innocence of love
In to such unbearable levels of lust
How on earth do I maintain this downward pressure
On your winsome faceUxoricide by *Rifle1980
25 Comments
Can't Find JoyI stole the smiles from both of my parent’s faces
The very same one I was responsible for
On the day I was delivered into their arms
In a cloth, from the beak of a black feathered stork

From the very first day with my very first breath
Though I was not able to speak a single word
It was evident as the nurses bowed their heads
That this boy with the dilated pupils was cursed

Everything I’ve ever grown to love and desire
In one way or another I have now destroyed
Yet still I have the temerity to question
Why it is that I can never seem to find joy

I stole the smiles from both of my parent’s faces
I would do anything at all Can't Find Joy by *Rifle1980
35 Comments
Fads and TrendsWhatever makes them popular today
Will be the death of them tomorrow
With looks like that they can say anything
And their insecure flock will follow

Run for your life, break away from the flock
Grow a back bone and do your own thing
Fear not for the adverse consequences
Living a lie brings much more suffering

What these people consider ‘scene’ today
Will of course not be seen tomorrow
Image is just a temporary façade
And yet these blind fools seem to follow

Run for your life, break away from the flock
And sing only from your own hymm sheet
Form your own ideas and opinions
Don’t recite someone else’s beliefs

Fads and Trends by *Rifle1980
58 Comments
I Feel Your AbsenceWe will not be sharing a kiss tonight
And no one else’s lips will ever do
Patience is a virtue, not a hindrance
It will be a pleasure waiting for you

Though I’m in love with your body and soul
And dream of a shared passion between us
I’ll wait to hear your body sing my name
There can indeed be innocence in lust

Alas, I cannot dance with you tonight
As we find ourselves many miles apart
But still you dance around my cluttered mind
Quickstep to the beat of my hollow heart

Though I’m in love with your past and present
I shall slowly remove the hurt and hate
Replacing it with a loving future
In accordance with my belieI Feel Your Absence by *Rifle1980
87 Comments
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Tragic Author

Tragic Author

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I’m looking forward to being a tragic author
I’ll sit on a cloud with no silver lining
And become the male equivalent of a spinster
With words as my spouse and books as my offspring

At least then it is I who will control the outcome
For the lives of my heroes and heroines
And since I’ll not be afforded a happy ending
The least I can do is to give one to them

The Lord said ‘no’ to my happily ever after
Perhaps to inspire my imagination
A hollowed out heart is an ideal home after all
For my mind’s perpetual inspiration

I’m looking forward to being a tragic author
I’m such a devoted, hopeless romantic
Devoted in the sense I should have been committed
And hopeless as I took our love for granted

I dare you to keep the anguish and torment coming
As it will serve to inspire my greatest work
Assuming my heart pumps love more efficiently than pain
And my mind can refrain from going berserk

Now I sit in frustration with my parchment paper
The ink of my life story refusing to dry
Bleeding through to pages that are yet to be written
While this tragic author’s words are cast aside
Tragic Author April 2 58 comments 120 favourites

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One thousand (and one) thank yous

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hello there deviantart followers and friends.

I just wanted to say thank you to you all. Today with my 100th deviation I received my 1,000th watcher. It is an incredible number of people that I never ever dreamt would be interested in what I wrote.

Your comments and faves inspire me to write more but have also got me through some tough times.

Days have been dark in the last few months. I am not one to complain as I know people go through much worse. But it has not been much fun. When I am at my lowest I like to write and upload to deviantart. Some of the comments I receive can turn my mood round and make me forget any sadness I was feeling atleast for a little while.

So thats about it. I wanted to say to every one of you that you are very special and make a huge difference in my life.

A special thank you to :iconxxsleepyfishxx:  She was the first person to watch me on this site and encourage me. And to :icondianadades: for introducing me to the site.

I hope I can continue to write poems that you will enjoy and I look forward to reading your new pieces of art.

have a great night everyone :)

Collin

ps. :iconluvluvplz: the person who this is for will know what this means
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One thousand (and one) thank yous May 14 19 Comments 2 Favourites
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*lecairde 5 days ago  Student Photographer
you're quite an inspirational writer. I really enjoy your work :heart: beautiful writings and thoughts, it's very refreshing!
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*Rifle1980 4 days ago   General Artist
Thank you for coming to tell me that. It means such a lot to me, it really does.

Thank you for watching me too :)
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~savagebyname May 14, 2013
Hey again! thankyou so much for the badges, and the watch, I would appreciate it, as you seem like such an esteemed artist if you could have a browse of my gallery and tell me how I can improve?
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*Rifle1980 May 14, 2013   General Artist
I would love to be able to help you and offer advice. It is really nice for you to call me an esteemed artist but actually I am very new to poetry still and actually have never studied it. I started out as a songwriter and just took it a step further.

From looking over your poems I can see that you dont need much advice at all from me :)

The way I have always seen it is just to write from the heart. Never force a rhyme. When I have come up with the basic outline for the poem I go through each sentence making sure it is as good as i can make it. That is all i can do really. Everything I upload is as good as I can write at this moment in time in my life. That is what I always say if I get negative comments.

I am glad I am watching you and when I have more time at weekend I am going to have a more in depth look at your gallery :)
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~savagebyname May 14, 2013
Thankyou so much, I really appreciate it. Noo, to me, having 1000 watchers means you must be esteemed on here! so congratulations on that feat.

I always try to write from the heart. Thankyou once again. :)
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*Rifle1980 6 days ago   General Artist
you are very welcome :)
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=star-blazer May 14, 2013  Professional Writer
Congratulations! :squee:

Your beautiful work "Homosexuality Bites" has been selected and featured for my "Lit. Pick of the Day" today! It will be featured for 24 hours on my page and in a news article with all May's picks at the end of the month.

Thank you for your stunning contribution to the literature community! Keep writing and best wishes!
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*Rifle1980 May 14, 2013   General Artist
oh that is really very kind of you! :)

I feel very flattered that you have featured me as your literature pick of the day :)

thank you!
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~kasumi-n-hikari May 13, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Your work is amazing
Truly inspiring
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*Rifle1980 May 14, 2013   General Artist
that is very kind of you to say so, thank you :)
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